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Where do I even begin? This has been the most traumatic weekend ever! Saturday we were going to have baby S get her Easter pictures taken.....We were supposed to be there at 4:45 but for some reason we were really antsy and left like an hour early....We got to the mall started doing some shopping and we hear a tornado had leveled the Lowe's in Sanford, and then all the lights go out....People start freaking out and leaving the mall and its  pouring rain and so windy out...I tell M we should stay till it at least stops and then we will leave, S wasn't going to get any pics taken in the dark.....We leave the mall and its nice outside, as we get on the road to go home, its blocked by the cops and all you see are ambulances & fire trucks....At this moment we are told we can't go in the subdivision we have to leave, so we take another road and the scene here is even worse....We pull into a gas station to see what happened, when I see the lady from the tanning salon walking, I ask her what happened and she says a tornado hit and everything is gone....I am like what we live behind there and shes like its all gone..At that moment all I can think about is our dogs, all three of them at home that is if it still there....We finally  say fuck it and start walking that's the only way they will let you in, so here we go me in flip flops, my 9 month old baby and husband along with hundreds of others...Everyone has the look of fear on there faces, my husband said it  reminded him of 9/11....As we get in our neighborhood there are huge trees laying on peoples homes, I just know ours was gonna be bad, I prayed to everyone and thing that I could think of..We got home and we were lucky our home only had a tree land on the garage and a few in the backyard.....The street over and beyond is completely gone...I have never in my life seen anything like it in person, it looks like a bomb hit...You have to drive past this everyday to leave and I don't think my heart can take it...I feel for these people I have no idea what they are feeling but my heart goes out to them....I have no idea how we did not loose everything we had, it hit so close...To see these families gathering there last bit of belongings and having it stacked out by what use to be a from door is just to much...Then you see everyone coming together and helping each other makes you feel hope for human kind, I just wish we could be like this at all times....

Our power has been out since the tornado and we got it back around 6 today (Tuesday)....I am just so lucky that power was the only thing we lost..I also grateful that we weren't in the home when it happened I don't think I could have taken the sounds of trees falling, power lines snapping, and the tornado....


I wanna say how thankful I am to the Police men & women of Fayetteville, the firefighters, the EMT workers, and the electric company.....