My July Fourth Wreath

Gym Attire

Ok the gym that I attend is for women only......So just because there are NO men around that doesn't mean that anything goes ya know..This is to the lady that  was doing Zumba in front of me today..Thanks for completely making me forget what the hell I was doing because I was staring at your big fat ass...Now my ass is not perfect ( my husband and many others have told me it is ;) The lady I will call her Moon, had on grey lycra pants, ok that's cool but when your ass looks like someone took a golf ball to it, its not good...If Moon would have worn a longer shirt she would have been good, but no she had a tank top on that was 4 sizes too small, I believe she may have a toddler  at home that she borrowed the shirt from. Her ass looked like the moons surface and I couldn't help but stare at her and it, did she not have a full length mirror to look in before she left the house? I love Zumba and do really well at it except for today, that moon butt had me all off....I would like to giver her a huge thank you shout out though, because since I had to stare at her tail for an whole hour I didn't stop by the fast food restaurant on the way home...

Thank You Moonie!!!!

Happy Mother's Day!!!

Actually we had to celebrate my first Mother's Day on Saturday.... M had duty on Sunday so Saturday was dedicated to me ;) We had a great day, went shopping for me even though S got a ton of clothes, I swear I could open a store with all the clothes she has....Her Dad is the worst at throwing items in the shopping cart..So since M had to work me & S went to my Mom's house and celebrated with her..I think they were just happy to see her, you would think I was invisible lol.....

I hoped my Uncle & Aunt would have been home so they could have seen her, but today my cousin graduated from Chapel Hill so they were there....

Time

What the heck does one do with a 9 month old all day??? I feel like I must be the most boring person to her in the world, and I thought I would totally  be a cool mom..I mean we read, play music, watch some TV, and go to the gym..She loves the people in the daycare, I guess they are much cooler than me...

We did manage to get her 9 month pictures finally taken, after surviving a tornado, then her first cold/ ear infection...The good part is the guy taking the pics was way hot I could barely concentrate lol..M knew this dude was my type, kinda looked like someone from a boy band lol...

Other than that I have been going to the gym, I met with my trainer and she gave me a really good plan...The only bad thing is since working out I have gained some ughhhhhhh.....

Chainsaws

I am so damn sick and tired of hearing chainsaws, I swear that's all I hear all day long besides baby S crying so much lately...They are trying to clean up all the debris from the tornado's but I swear in the middle of the night I still hear chainsaws...Its like being stuck in a horror movie waiting for leather face to jump out from a corner doing his chainsaw dance...

Since the storms I have been in such a funk having to drive thru all the devastation....I swear I can't take it anymore..I have to close my eyes when we drive thru the neighborhood because its just so sad,......I haven't been to the gym at all cause I can barely get out of bed..I just wanna move so bad I don't think I can take it..ughhhhh

Numb

Where do I even begin? This has been the most traumatic weekend ever! Saturday we were going to have baby S get her Easter pictures taken.....We were supposed to be there at 4:45 but for some reason we were really antsy and left like an hour early....We got to the mall started doing some shopping and we hear a tornado had leveled the Lowe's in Sanford, and then all the lights go out....People start freaking out and leaving the mall and its  pouring rain and so windy out...I tell M we should stay till it at least stops and then we will leave, S wasn't going to get any pics taken in the dark.....We leave the mall and its nice outside, as we get on the road to go home, its blocked by the cops and all you see are ambulances & fire trucks....At this moment we are told we can't go in the subdivision we have to leave, so we take another road and the scene here is even worse....We pull into a gas station to see what happened, when I see the lady from the tanning salon walking, I ask her what happened and she says a tornado hit and everything is gone....I am like what we live behind there and shes like its all gone..At that moment all I can think about is our dogs, all three of them at home that is if it still there....We finally  say fuck it and start walking that's the only way they will let you in, so here we go me in flip flops, my 9 month old baby and husband along with hundreds of others...Everyone has the look of fear on there faces, my husband said it  reminded him of 9/11....As we get in our neighborhood there are huge trees laying on peoples homes, I just know ours was gonna be bad, I prayed to everyone and thing that I could think of..We got home and we were lucky our home only had a tree land on the garage and a few in the backyard.....The street over and beyond is completely gone...I have never in my life seen anything like it in person, it looks like a bomb hit...You have to drive past this everyday to leave and I don't think my heart can take it...I feel for these people I have no idea what they are feeling but my heart goes out to them....I have no idea how we did not loose everything we had, it hit so close...To see these families gathering there last bit of belongings and having it stacked out by what use to be a from door is just to much...Then you see everyone coming together and helping each other makes you feel hope for human kind, I just wish we could be like this at all times....

Our power has been out since the tornado and we got it back around 6 today (Tuesday)....I am just so lucky that power was the only thing we lost..I also grateful that we weren't in the home when it happened I don't think I could have taken the sounds of trees falling, power lines snapping, and the tornado....


I wanna say how thankful I am to the Police men & women of Fayetteville, the firefighters, the EMT workers, and the electric company.....

No G or T today

Well the night before last S decided she wanted to stay up half the night and scream...We ended up putting her in our bed, the problem with that is I never get any sleep when shes in our bed... Then on top of that we were getting up early 8 to go to the gym, but after that sleepless night I just wanted to watch my eyelids and not go to any gym....The alarm went off and M had already put baby S in her bed so when I got up to go to the gym, I went to her room and had to wake her lazy ass up....I told her the night before she needed to sleep or she would regret it lol....It took her like 5 minutes to open her eyes, so I changed her and put her going out clothes on....We actually got to the gym early 8:50 so everything was all good..She did wonderful in the daycare, I was a little worried because she has never really been away from me...When I went in to get her she was chilling with all the other big kids it was so freaking cute....

So its easy to say I was exhausted when we got home, from the gym and not sleeping the night before....You know I am sick when I don't mop/sweep the floors....When M got home all I wanted to do was go take a nap, but I sucked it up and we watched Celebrity Apprentice on DVR,that Gary Busey is a freaking nut job...While watching it though I thought we would never finish it because S loves to talk at the top of lungs when we are watching something...If its a movie we always have to have subtitles or else we end up missing the good parts....So after having to start and pause for like 500 times we finished it and I told M I needed 5 minutes of silence..I went to the bedroom and he fed S her nightly bottle and next thing I know he was in bed with me and said S had already fallen asleep...It was like 9:30 so I was like yeah right she'll be up at 10:30 wide awake, but guess what we never heard a peep out of her till this morning..Me on the other hand didn't get any sleep, I started to get the chills and body aches...M said it was that I was sore from the gym, but I told them this was no gym pain, that I thought I maybe dying. He got me some medicine and I guess soon after I passed out around 3....So dear gym & tanning you will have to wait to another day I am way to tired...

GTL

Ok maybe not L everyday but at least on Wednesday & Saturday lol....This past Saturday as me & M were getting ready to go out for the day, I couldn't find a thing to wear..I am going to take a picture of my closet so everyone to see how many clothes I do actually have....My closet looks like a freaking store I have so many things I could stock it with. Everytime that I say oh I have nothing to wear I  see M rolling his eyes around in his head, and me telling him they are going to stick one day..Saturday something clicked though, I gained a ton of weight while being pregnant , like 40 pounds, and then on top of the weight from my job well I am obese now;( I promised myself before the baby came I would begin to eat better..I have always exercised but the good eating habits were never there....
My whole life I never had a problem with my weight, till I took a stupid job on base working with school age children. This meant getting up at 3:30 in the morning to be at work at 4:15a.m. then getting off at 8:15a.m. and going home to sleep, then going back to work at 12 and getting off at 4p.m.....We operated on a split shift cause the kids were in school during the day it totally sucked, and I also had to work on Saturday from 4:45am. to 2:45 p.m. with NO lunch break....So as you know i had no energy at all to do anything remotely physical, I don't even know how I got pregnant because I was always so freaking tired....I also worked these hours the entire time I was pregnant and never missed a day...
So after not having "anything" to wear I decided this is  enough I am going to join the gym...Years ago when I lived here I joined the women's only gym, which was really nice cause it had a pool....So I went in on Saturday to see what the dues were and if they still had the pool, and any daycare....Well the dues are super cheap, the pool is there, and daycare is free for two hours, anything over that is a $1...I also found out my old trainer still works there, she is a former DS from the Army so she is tough but good....So tomorrow is a new day and I can't wait to burn that fat right off that booty of mine....

Diarrhea of the fingertips

Ok so I am gonna jump up on my soapbox for a second..Lately it seems like everyone on Facebook thinks it ok to just post whatever..I mean I could careless how many carrots you ate today or however many times your child puked....Some people even put on there that they couldn't afford to pay this bill or that bill..Ok then get the hell off FB playing Farmville and get a damn job...Maybe I just have low budget friends who knows, but I do know many seem to have so much drama to be over the age of 30...I login to to get away from everything and hell they are on there having arguments over silly crap...To get mad over something  a person "types" on a computer is just too damn dumb to me anyway..Its like get a hobby and stop worrying about petty mess...FB should be about connecting with old friends maybe making new ones, not to cause you headaches....So people please stop airing your dirty big girl panties out like that, no one wants to see your skid marks ok....

M got off work early today and we went to our favorite Italian restaurant....S loves the place also because we always have the same waitress who spends oodles of time talking to her....M is obsessed with fish in our old house we have like 4 tanks, since we moved I told him we could only have 2..One for me in the nursery and then one in our bedroom.....So on our outing we had to go to 3 pet stores who all have the same fish but we went to anyway....We were supposed to only be going out to eat and the grocery store so I only bought 1 bottle of formula with us.....At the last pet store I swear it took us over 30 minutes to get his fish, the poor guy helping M was scared to death of the things.....By the time we got in the car from food shopping S was over the entire trip and just wanted to be fed, problem was she already drank the bottle....We were such bad parents that we had no extra food with us so on the 20 minute trip back home (M chose the store farthest away) she screamed the entire time in my ear.....I had a complete headache just wanted M to pull over and let me walk the rest of the way home...This baby chick has a set of lungs on her, when we got home I fed her and she was all good but man was she mad.......Oh lord its after midnight and the chick has risen I better go and see whats the deal.....

Shut Down???

Well today we find out if our government shuts down or not. We are a military family so YES it will afeect us but we were  lucky  enough to start a savings account a few years ago..I was working and able to put money into it along with my hubby...Will it affect us yes, will we hurt for money no, we have enough to cover bills and whatever else is needed for at least a year or so. I know there are many many others out there that are not as fortunate and I really fell awful for them..I mean how will they feed there families? Pay rent or mortgages?Just be able to live? Many military families are living paycheck to paycheck just like the rest of America. Maybe the President and the rest of Congress needs to say ok lets not get paid either, but we all know that wont happen.
Now on to a lighter subject;

Last night S was able to go to bed at like 12 it was a big moment...I was so tired I couldn't stand it but she did wake up at 1 and I gave her the paci and she went right back to bed..Then around 2 she woke up whining but I let her whine and she finally went back to sleep...I kept praying to the baby Gods that she would sleep last night and she did, I just wish it would have been before midnight....

Sleep is for wimps

Last night baby S stayed up till 2:30 in the morning crying...I thought I was losing my marbles she started making pooting sounds with her mouth and I couldn't help but laugh, out of sheer madness...M thought I had lost my mind and took S in the living room, I am glad to say that he did get her to go to bed without my help...This is a first and I think we were both surprised and he felt like he had done something major so I let him run with it ;)

So this week I started my Lindsay Brin boot camp DVDs...This chick is awesome, her body is A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!!!!She has 2 children and one on the way and I would kill someone to have those abs...Her voice annoys me a bit so I stare at her abs and try to block it all out....The videos are nice because I can workout in 10 minute blocks during the day and baby S doesn't mind too much...If I feel like working out longer I just wait till M get home, but it does take away some of my me time but oh well its so worth it....

Yesterday we started tanning and I felt like a kid in a candy store....I had no idea how much I missed it or how darn pale I am..Yikes standing there putting on the lotion I glanced in the mirror and swore it was a ghost!!! I also had to laugh because in the year that I have stopped tanning I see that Ed Hardy & JWOWW from the Jersey Shore have tanning lotions...I have no idea why I felt it was silly but I just had to point it out to M. I wanna get some color but no Jersey Shore tan ya know...

Till Next Time,,

H

Tired

Well for some reason lastnight my little night owl 'S' decided she wanted to stay up till 12:30.Any other night I may not have been so mad but Sunday morning at like 8:15 TWC called to come over and fix out telephone lines so I had to get up extra early. So I was running on fumes this morning cause Rocco wanted to bark and wake the baby up super early so she was a little cranky all day...To top that off today is mop the house Monday and this place is huge so I had alot to do...When M came home he was feeling bad and I didn't feel like eating the stew I made so we got takeout at Logan's Steakhouse....We tried watching Celebrity Apprentice on DVR but the baby kept babbling that we had to keep pausing so we gave up...M went to bed early and I ended up popping the Bubble Guppies on DVR for S and then getting on here really quick before I crash...

I am kinda mad at myself for eating at Logan's I was trying to watch what I eat but that went out with the cheese fries I shoved down my throat....We were going tanning tonight but M got off at 5 instead of earlier so I guess we will go tomorrow..I am so pale I could blind someone if I put shorts on...When the  baby was born I swore off tanning but I can't do it..I thought of trying spray tanning but if I would turn orange M would NEVER let me hear the end of it....Oh I better go all I hear is MAMAMAMAMAMAMAMMA..

Tah Dah

Warning before you go any further  please know this:

Well this is my first posting and if your looking for something enlightening or whatnot you've come to the wrong place ..I just tell it how it is how I fell and how I like it....and YES there will be grammatical  errors everywhere...I am just writing to vent things how they are in my life and everyday surroundings. Yes I  may offend some and if I do then I am so sorry....I have a terrible potty mouth and when I start to rant there is no telling what may be typed next ....My life is pretty boring but I do hope some people will enjoy what they read.....

Ughhh I had no idea how hard it would be to be a stay at home mother..They need to start handing out medals to these people and huge tax breaks...I have only been out of work for 9 months with baby S but damn this is hard work....My whole life I have worked and loved doing so and figured that after the baby came I would go back to work after my maternity leave ended...but when baby S came in to this world and I looked into those beautiful eyes I just couldn't  fathom anyone taking care of her. My husband and I made the choice that I could become a stay at home mom if I wanted to, we are lucky enough to have that option. Baby S is a great baby she is so chill and easy going but shes kinda needy and yes I know shes a baby and babies are needy but man o man is she really needy....No one can soothe her or feed her or even change her without her totally freaking out. M is a great Dad and I can ask for no better husband but he just can't get the job done. I ask that I get a a hour or so in the evening to exercise or spend time to myself but baby S will have nothing to do with that idea..As soon as I leave the room she starts having a fit ughhh!!!!!!!!!so as of now I am getting no time to myself and think I may go crazy before she turns 1....


Help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!